the pups have begun to work on the farm as well. They will help to guard the field at night. Last night, we delivered Nata to the field around 8:30 p.m. and left her until 4:45 a.m. in the dark. The farm dogs, Wrinkles and Chico, were down there too, doing their daily jobs. In the morning, Nata was hyper! It was like she had all this pent-up energy, maybe nervousness. and she is okay.
Tonight Nata lies on our bed in front of the fan in front of the window, chewing on her bone. Tonight, I walked Tunas down to the field, put him on his outdoor tie-up leash, gave him a treat and a toy. I watched him happily sniff everything. I hoped he could smell his sister down there from the night before and feel safe.
I said “bye Tunas, I love you, I’ll see you in the morning” as I walked away. over and over again. tunas sat. upright. and watched me go.
I felt sad. I felt shameful. My mind conjured up ideas of abandoning my child. to the night. I thought, “I wouldn’t want to be out here in the dark, in the night.”
and I can hear Tunas outside barking. doing his job. that’s his job. to scare animals away with his bark and/or alert Chico, so that he can run the critter off the field.
I do not know if I can continue to do this. I mean, I guess I can. I do not know if I want to continue to do this. We shall see. We work these full days, The night is like our time together. The time when the pups and I sleep together. When we rest together. When we cuddle.
oh I hope I get some sleep tonight. and I hope that tunas is safe. and I am excited for the morning, when I can retrieve my baby, and reassure him of my love.
